I stood in the small dark room with the menacingly hot spotlight pointed directly over me. A very talented artist, Rachel, had just finished doing my stage makeup. I thought I looked pretty ridiculous because I never wear much makeup as a rule. My eyebrows were covered with chalky mime makeup and penciled in as thin lines.
Scared yet?
I jokingly referred to myself as Morticia to the makeup artists.
I heard a wolf whistle and turned around quickly. When I saw who it was, I grinned sheepishly.
“Whoa, whoa, whoa. Girl, you don’t even need that light in here!”
I rolled my eyes. I never know how to take cheesy compliments from men.
He laughed.
“Oh, I see. Beth Warren has no time for that kind of nonsense. Capital B-eth Capital W-arren is tough stuff.”
That was better. Clever teasing is so much sexier than flirtation. Not many men know that.
“Well, I am supposed to be playing a psychotic woman who just killed her two children and her husband’s lover. Just trying to stay in character, Travis.”
“Fine, fine. All business, no play,” he winked at me.
He pulled out a bottle of KY jelly and began to mix it in a bowl of gold glitter. Since my character was a Greek goddess, he had made the decision as director to have me “glow”.
It was an interesting concept, and I was open to trying something new. It was yet another twist in the myriad of ways he had incorporated me into his world of creative genius, and I was fascinated. What I didn’t expect was that he wanted to apply it to my skin himself. Rachel smiled, shook her head and made some goofy remark about leaving the two of us to “business.”
When his huge, strong hands touched my arm I felt chills run through my body. I shut my eyes and smiled, enjoying the sensations of his touch. Every few moments I’d look down and see him intently applying the oily glitter all over my arms, neck, face, legs and….breasts.
He touched my cleavage, not asking permission, not hesitating. The oil slid between his fingers and I felt every tender motion.
I sighed heavily.
“I’m almost done,” he chuckled as he knelt beneath me to touch up my legs.
Whoa boy. He completely misunderstood the sigh.
“I’m not all business,” I said quietly, taking the half empty bottle of KY and lifting it level to my head. I let the oil drip onto his bare arm. “I like play, too.”
“You have my complete attention ma’am,” he said.
“Are you saluting me when you say ma’am?”
“Well, let’s put it this way. The play hasn’t even started and you’re already getting a standing ovation.”
“Nice!”
“I try.”
I had taken his newly slick forearm in my hand and was sliding my fingers up and down it in long strokes. I couldn’t close my hand around his very muscular appendage, and so the oil squeezed out from between my fingers and continued to drip.
“Do you like that?” I said, starting to stroke faster. He just stared at me.
“Do you like it when I do it rough?” I stroked harder.
“Oh, yes…”
“Do you like it dripping wet and messy?” I lifted his arm and slid my tongue against the uber sensitive underside of his arm.
At that moment, one of his assistants cleared her throat at the door. She was holding an overflowing notebook, and quickly informed him that there was much to be done before the guests started arriving. He got up, shrugged his shoulders and followed her. Right after he walked out the door, he took a step back and winked at me.
My job was actually pretty cool. The event A Medea Experience itself took place in this giant old candy mill in the ghetto of abandoned industrial Chattanooga. He and his team of artists had decorated the different rooms with different themes and signifiers. Instead of a stage, we had this spooky old building that was lit only with the candles given to the guests at the front door. The guests would literally follow the actors around to the different rooms as the scenes unfolded.
By himself he had designed a room with pieces of paper glued all over the walls and fake blood splashed everywhere. The pieces of paper had phrases and fragments of thoughts which could only be read by candlelight. Another room was decorated like a bedroom in the 1930’s complete with gramophone and yellowing photographs. Yet another had a working dust storm which he created with sand and a lot of powerful fans. Another room had a backlit sheet where the murder was acted out. Each room offered critical clues to solving the mystery. My part was the embodiment of the Greek legend which inspired the women in the play to murder their husbands and feel no remorse. It’s pretty dark, but it was awesome.
A “poison brewery” from one of the sets in the play. So freaking amazing!
I sat under the spotlight, while people came in and observed me through the one wall of my room which was completely glass. It was my job to scare the ever living shit out of people, basically. I loved it. Eventually, I got to come out, when the people were close to figuring out which of the women murdered who and sneak up behind the audience with blood curdling screams. I was then lifted off the ground with hooks and wire and “flew” down the corridor over them. A whole gaggle of my friends were coming and I was super stoked. Just being asked to be a part of this was an honor. I swear I have the coolest friends/connections!
As I sat there, with guests coming in, paying and staring at me sitting in the room behind the ticket booth, I remembered how I met Travis.
I was perching out on the porch of one of my favorite spots in North Shore: Stone Cup Coffee. I was by myself, just soaking up the sun and watching children play in the park while sipping my coffee. After awhile I took out my Kindle and immersed myself in a delightful book on travel.
A group of people came and sat at the table adjacent to me. They were obviously enjoying each other’s company immensely; giggling and conversing freely. I looked up momentarily and saw the social pollen around whom they all buzzed. He was the darkest man I had ever seen, with dreds that fell down his back clasped into a pony tail. He was very tall, lean and just the right amount of wiry/muscular—things I find very attractive in men. He wore a sleeveless shirt that hugged his defined chest and flat torso.
Somehow he was able to carry on a conversation with every single member of his party at the same time; speaking with his hands, his expressions and body language just as much as his words. Yet another attribute I find myself strongly drawn to; extraversion.
As I watched the incredibly chemistry this group of strangers had with each other and this beautiful man, I had a crazy idea. I wanted to go up to them, introduce myself and sit down at their table. A natural introvert, this is pretty much the exact opposite of my nature. I enjoy meeting new people, but it’s not generally my approach to just go up and introduce myself. But I felt compelled to do so. Besides, the beautiful man kept stealing glances my way. Why the hell not?
What followed was a fascinating and intellectually stimulating conversation with some incredibly bright individuals. Their “leader” of sorts, Travis, was a man of infinite hats. He spoke 3 languages, one of which was Swahili, played numerous instruments which he taught himself on a whim, and had directed plays all over the world. His greatest joy, however, was his 15 year old daughter and his cabin out by the lake.
When I heard he was a father to a nearly grown girl, I was shocked. He didn’t look like he was in his mid-to-late-30s, but holy crap.
I had made a new friend who in the space of one afternoon had expanded my horizons a little wider.
Over the course of the next several months, he sent me Facebook messages with poetry which made him think of me (?!) and photo shoot ideas for my modeling from his own photography. His specialty was putting a pinhole camera in his mouth and “exposing” the negative by opening his lips in the direction of his subject. Sharing creativity and art with someone so accomplished is a rare treat indeed.
I was jolted back to reality when the stage manager, Mike, and the creative director, Megan, asked if I’d like a drink. They had a glass of something green and almost fluorescent looking for me. I learned presently this was called Absinthe, and it tasted like distilled licorice. Kind of gross, but strangely, I couldn’t stop sipping it.
Before hurtling through the hallway on wires, I guess they figured I could use a stiff one or two. Good call.
I meandered my way down the dark corridors of the drafty old mill, and was greeted by my friends Jennelle, Brandon, Kat and our new friend James the naked gold-painted man, who Kat proceeded to follow around like a puppy after a pound of bacon.
A concert of sorts was going on during intermission, and Travis was standing in the middle of the other band members with a mandolin, playing a very spirited and soulful version of John Mayer’s “Say“.
We were surrounded by artists eating fire, and hula-hooping with 2 and 3 hulas at a time. Everywhere we looked there was art, and beauty. As I showed my friends the different rooms and explained their significance, we eventually found ourselves outside the mill.
The summer night air felt amazing and smelled even better. Gently buzzed, I left my group of friends and wandered around the back. I could hear the faint sound of police sirens—a staple in these neighborhoods, I’m told. I couldn’t help but smile at the thought of my mother knowing where I was. Next door to the projects on 28th street. At night. Alone. There was no telling what could happen, and it was eerily exhilerating.
The sound of humans came into focus as I tipsy-toed around in the dark. The shadowy figures were pressed up against the back of the building, and were becoming more and more audible. I lifted my candle.
The sound, it turned out, was two people kissing and fondling each other.
When the light caught their faces, I gasped.
“Oh!” I squeaked. “I’m so sorry! Keep at it, don’t mind me! I’m heading back!”
The girl, who I recognized as Travis’ assistant and whose makeup was now smeared all over her face, gave me a very emphatic hand gesture.
I stumbled over what I think was a rusty bicycle. Or what once was a bicycle.
“Wait!” called the male voice, who had started to run after me.
“Stay the fuck away from her!” screamed the girl.
I kept moving. He kept moving. I made it back to my friends, who in their Caucasian naiveté had assumed the worst when they heard the screaming. They had been frantically searching for me.
I was laughing and told them what had happened.
Suddenly, out of the night, Travis appeared. He still had makeup all over his face from his assistant. He looked more terrified than a white girl in the ghetto.
I was still grinning.
“Have some fun out there? But seriously, what’s with all the scream…”
“Beth, I am so sorry. I’m drunk. She came on to me. It didn’t mean anything.”
“Dude, what?”
“I don’t want her, I want you. I need you to know that.”
Finally, I understood. I laughed, very enthusiastically.
“Travis. Stop. Just stop.”
“What?”
“I’m not mad at you. Like, at all.”
“You’re not?”
“Hardly. You’re human. And you don’t belong to me any more than I belong to you. I mean, if I have any objection it would be to pick a better spot to fuck her. Y’all could get tetanus out there.”
He stared at me like he expected me to stop playing around and erupt into jealous rage at any moment. When I started to giggle, he finally believed me.
“You may just be the perfect woman. Seriously.”
I rolled my eyes. The assistant had run to her friends and was sobbing and casting woeful glances in our direction. It was really pretty pathetic. I don’t understand girls.
Travis reached forward and took my face tenderly in his hands. Our lips met, and I was surprised at how soft and expressive his were. I tasted his passion, gratitude and admiration in undulating suction.
“Come home with me,” he said.
I smiled and leaned my forehead against his, gently shaking my head from side to side.
“It was worth a shot. You didn’t tell me you were in love with someone else,” he said softly.
“I’m not!” I replied indignantly. “I’m not! I’m really not!”
He chuckled and looked at me with the endless amusement of someone who has lived much longer and knows far more about the mysteries of the heart.
“I can tell by how you kissed me. Your heart is with someone else. And when the heart wants something its like the tide. You can ignore it for awhile, but it always comes back. And it’s okay. Don’t give me that look! He’s a lucky man.”
“I’m not in love. Stop assuming you know what’s up.”
“Okay, Beth.”
“Whose in love?” asked Brandon.
“I am,” replied Kat, “James’ ass is shaped like two perfect scoops of butter pecan ice cream and I intend to have me a spoonful.”
“Kat is drunk,” explained Jennelle, in the matter-of-fact way I love so much about her.
“You don’t say!” I chortled, glad for a change of subject.
The four of us wandered off into the night and walked across the Walnut Street Bridge singing Braodway show tunes. I smiled up at the nearly full moon, and looked at the water below.
I pulled out my phone and saw that I had a new message. I read it and felt my heart flood with joy. It was exactly what I needed to hear.
The tide was encroaching upon the shore, teasing it with kisses and begging it to stop resisting its advances. It was inevitable. One day the tide will erode the shore; little by little they will eventually become one.